an update...

i'm just gonna kind of ramble on here this post...

it seems like i only post about pregnancy crap now. but really that's what my life is all about right now.

i haven't been blogging much because i feel like all i'll do is complain, and that color doesn't look good on me.

but if i'm gonna fill yall in, you're gonna have to deal with it.

WARNING: if there are some things you'd rather not know about me or pregnancy, stop reading now.

okay i warned you.

let's get the complaints out of the way...
i miss sleep. i think i'm grieving. because i know i'll never get it back. i miss being chunky ole sondra with acceptable skin and manageable hair. i miss being able to put my own socks on. i miss dry underwear. my crotch hurts. really. it's not horrible or unbearable, but it's definitely a NEW feeling. there's a lot of "new" in pregnancy.

and because i really do try to be positive...
i'm still very excited to be pregnant. i feel very blessed to be this fortunate. we nailed it on the first try. i hear that only happens when you're NOT trying. ::chuckle, snort:: let's see... i don't miss zippers. the other day as i left the restroom, i wondered briefly if i'd left my zipper down as i didn't remember zipping up (rightly so). and i was all... oh, hey, how funny, i haven't worried about that in months! i can still shave. kind of. my back doesn't hurt. and i very rarely have reflux. all good. the hubs is being super sweet. probably because i waddle when i think he's not looking. so i guess maybe he is looking. no other explanation. except that i'm carrying his kid. i guess that could be it.

and about baby girl's name...
i am proud to say that i've turned it over to the hubs. he will be naming her. only way to say it is i'm too close to the issue and i'm stressing about it. and i'm so emotional i can hardly stand it. anyway there's just no reason to be stressed about it. over the years i've learned to lean on my husband's strengths... one of which is that he is a very stress free individual. he doesn't let much really get him too worked up. so i'm leaning on him here. he knows which names i like and how i feel about other ones. i trust him to choose a name we will both love... even if i only love it because he picked it. so, today, her name is Jillian, which we actually decided on many years ago! but obviously he reserves the right to change it as many times as he wants before she's born.

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